redvbooks Chapter 118 118
Chapter 118 118
Because of Aizen's permission, Ayakawa is now able to walk freely in Xuye Palace, but Ayakawa himself is a person who is more afraid of trouble, so even if he has freedom, he has not caused chaos in Xuye Palace run.
Ayakawa passed by Ulquiola's palace when returning to his room. He thought that the other party was still very busy as before, but this time he saw Ulquiola standing in his palace and looking outside. Fengsha didn't know what he was thinking.
Ayakawa thought for a while, then walked in and stood beside Ulquiola.Although Ulquiola sensed someone coming, he didn't look back and didn't make a sound.
Ayakawa glanced at where Ulquiola was looking, and asked with some doubts, "Ulquiola, what are you looking at?"
"I didn't look at anything, I just got used to it." Ulquiola said this without any emotion.
As he said, he looked at those outside, but his mind was empty, after all, he was used to this look a long time ago.
Ayakawa looked sideways at Ulquiola's unwavering eyes, and for a moment didn't know what to say, because he could indeed see that the other party didn't have any emotions when he said these words.
Or to put it another way... the broken face in front of him seemed to have no emotion at all times, just mechanically executing Aizen's orders.Even protecting him and taking care of him is also because of Lan Ran's orders, otherwise this broken face wouldn't even look at him.
"I became Xu because I lost the so-called heart." Ayakawa looked at Ulquiorra, "That's why he followed the instinct to devour the souls of human beings, and devoured the same kind. But these days, I don't think Xu is heartless, just like the few faces I'm familiar with all have their own attachments, Ulquiola, you must have them too."
Hearing what Ayakawa said, Ulquiorra finally turned his head to look at the humans not far away from him: "There is no meaning in our world, and we who live in this world are also meaningless, and we who are meaningless think There's no point in this world, even knowing that there's no point here."
Ayakawa was covered in black lines by Ulquiorra's string of 'meaningless'. It was the first time he heard Ulquiola say such a long sentence, although the content of the words was meaningless... …
"Actually, I don't understand. You humans keep talking about 'heart', as if it's in your palm." Speaking of which, Ulquiorra looked into Ayakawa's eyes, "Humans, don't you feel scared? ?Obviously in this position, knowing that we are like food to us, why can we still laugh so calmly, why don’t we feel despair and fear.”
Ayakawa: Because he has facial paralysis just like you, dear~!It's just that he is paralyzed with a smile, and you are paralyzed with a cold face.
Of course, the above words are just thinking in Ayakawa's mind, while he complained nonchalantly in his heart, he said serious words: "I don't feel afraid, just because I know that even if I am afraid, there is no way to change the status quo .I just chose a way that makes me live more comfortably.”
"It's not that the 'heart' doesn't exist, but you haven't found it yet. Since you think it's meaningless, go find it." Ayakawa said, stretching out his hand to cover Ulchi The black hole in Aura's chest, "Then, sooner or later, the hole in the chest will be filled."
Ulquiorra didn't stop Ayawa's actions, but when he heard Aykawa's words behind him, his eyes sparkled, and he stretched out his hand to put on Ayawa's chest, and then moved to Ayakawa's head: "What is a 'heart'? If I tear your chest apart, can I see everything in your heart? If I smash your skull, can I see everything in your head?"
There was still no ups and downs in the tone, but when Ayakawa heard it, Ayakawa's hair stood on end, a little helpless: "Even if you tear my chest open and smash my skull, you still won't understand. Ulquiorra , that is not something that can be understood in this way, but you have to experience it yourself, and you have to find it slowly.”
"Ulquiorra, I want to ask you a few questions." Ayakawa said, "Do you have anything important?"
"No."
"Is there anything you can't let go of?"
"No."
"Do you care about your own life?"
"Do not."
"So, if Aizen ordered you to kill the other Ten Blades, would you do it?"
Ulquiola thought for a while, but still answered in the affirmative: "If it is necessary to kill, yes."
"What if it kills me?"
"Yes. None of this makes sense to me."
For getting these answers, Ayakawa didn't realize how surprised he was.He just smiled at Ulquiola, and said, "But I won't."
"Even if I am stronger than you, I won't kill you." Ayakawa said, "Because of getting along for a while, I have no way to do anything."
Even if he knew that the poor man in front of him took care of him entirely because of Aizen's order, Ayakawa also thanked Ulquiola.
After all, Ulquiorra protected his existence after he first arrived in this world.
"Have you ever thought about why Ulquiola stayed by Aizen's side and obeyed his orders?" Ayakawa said, looking at Ulquiola seriously, "If it's like what you said , if everything is meaningless, why do you still follow that person?"
Ulquiola thought for a while, and asked himself why he followed Aizen-sama.He himself knew that it was definitely not because the other party gave him a place, or because there were his kind around him...
Probably because... every time he sees the other person's eyes, a very blurry picture will appear in his mind.
It was a long, long time ago, so long that he had just had a weak consciousness of himself.He didn't know how many years ago it was, and even the memory of that time was vague. The clearest picture in his mind was a pair of light brown eyes with meanings he didn't understand.
Those eyes seemed to coincide with Aizen's gaze when he was looking at him at that time, making him follow that person's side without thinking about it, following his instinct.
Facing Ulquiorra's silence, Ayagawa boldly stretched out his hand and knocked on the other's head: "When you think about these things, there is already a difference."
For such a bold move by Ayakawa, Ulquiorra didn't say anything, just stared at the eyes of the human beings in front of him, a little puzzled and a little dazed.
Speaking of which, it was the first time for him to look at this human being so seriously, and only then did he realize that the eyes of this human being had a slightly familiar color to him.
Ayakawa also stared into Ulquiorra's eyes, looking at the other's emerald green eyes without any emotion, and thought of the little bat he met in the desert again.But he immediately came back to his senses: "Speaking of which, Ulquiola, you seem to be very busy recently."
"Master Aizen's order." Ulquiora turned his head to the outside again, knowing that Ayakawa is now a member of Xuye Palace, he still explained a little bit, "I have a mission, and you will be able to see it in a few days Your kind."
"Huh?" Ayakawa looked over with some doubts, but found that Ulquiola had no intention of continuing, so he quickly put this matter behind him.
After this day, the distance between Ayakawa and Ulquiorra has shortened a lot. Although the other party still looked expressionless when getting along, Ayakawa could also feel a little difference.
And only then did he know that Ulquiorra had the potential to be a chatterbox.I often talk to him about some philosophical and connotative things. Now Ayakawa dreams of Ulquiorra asking him what is 'heart'.
But Ulquiorra is still relatively busy, so Ayakawa still runs to Stark's palace when he is free, and has a forceful game with Lilinette.
On this day, Ayakawa, who had just come out of the Stark Palace, planned to go back to his room, but met Grimmjow on the way.Looking at the person walking towards him, Ayakawa's gaze paused at the empty arm of the other person, and then he returned to normal immediately, and greeted him flatly: "I haven't seen you for several days, Grimmjow."
"Tsk, so it's you, a human being." Grimmjow responded with a frown, a little rushed because he was in a bad mood, "Dodge, it's blocking the way."
Ayakawa said that when dealing with a character like Grimmjow, one has to follow the opponent's hair, so he followed what the other party said, turned slightly sideways, and made way for the opposite person.
When Grimmjow came to him, Ayakawa said, "By the way, Grimmjow, do you have time?"
Hearing Ayakawa's words, Grimmjow looked sideways at the humans beside him.
Seeing his appearance, Ayakawa immediately said, "If you have time, please check the results of the recent training for me."
Hearing this, Grimmjow narrowed his eyes slightly, stared at Ayakawa and found that he didn't show any mocking expression, his mood improved a little, but what he said was still very ruthless: "Just you? "
The corners of his eyes twitched, and before Ayakawa could say anything, Grimmjow on the opposite side said again: "If you want to seek death, I will help you."
Ayakawa took a deep breath in his heart and told himself to be calm... Damn, he really had a brain twitch just now, and he just wanted to talk to the person opposite! !
Grimmjow took a few steps forward, stopped when he didn't hear the sound behind him, glanced back, and said in a somewhat impatient voice, "Don't you want my uncle to check it? Why don't you follow me?"
Ayakawa blinked, followed Grimmjow's footsteps, and said while walking: "Let's say it first, you are not allowed to use the ten-blade special flash."
Grimmjow: "Tsk, don't worry, I have no plans to kill you yet."
Ayagawa: "...=dish="
Grimmjow's mood subtly improved when he saw Ayakawa's anger from the corner of his eye.
Although he doesn't like to think, he can still feel Ayakawa's kindness and concern more or less. Originally, he disdained these things, but Ayakawa behaved very naturally, and he didn't intentionally poke his wound. It was a tactful way to tell him 'Look, even if you lose an arm, you are still very strong', so Grimmjow didn't mind spending a little longer with this somewhat weak person.
Seeing that this human being is quite pleasing to the eye, if this guy encounters any troubles in the future, the uncle doesn't mind protecting this stupid and weak human being a little bit.